Wishes, and more wishes.

I’ve got a serious case of the shoemaker’s children. My day job is to insert content into web sites; straight-up HTML and CSS for 8 hours a day, then a 45 minute drive home. I used to love daydreaming about blog posts for my personal site and I would even keep a journal to write down ideas as they struck me. I don’t do that anymore. Now that keyboarding has begun to bring pain to my dominant hand (I’m a lefty), it’s difficult to come home after work and get back on the keyboard again after dinner, dishes, chores, and kids’ bedtimes.

Tonight I brought home my Wacom pen tablet, and that makes it easier to do my own tasks on my personal computer. Seriously, at work I have a lefty mouse, a righty mouse, and a tablet. AND I’ve just ordered a trial of Contour’s RollerMouse Pro, which will put all mouse controls right under my thumbs and eliminate my reach for a mouse on either side.

During all these months of my sparing blog posts (indicating I’ve been preoccupied with personal issues), I’ve been following my own advice. As I feel depressed, I reach for more vitamins, calcium, and fish oil supplements. I do keep a bottle of Theanine Serene amino acid supplements. It’s a calming complex with GABA. One time I was very upset and it took me a long time to even remember through the tears to take the aminos, but when I did remember to take them, I was calm again after ten minutes.

Recently I’ve bought Wishes Fulfilled and seen The Shift, both by Dr. Wayne Dyer. These have absolutely helped me shift my mindset positively! The Shift aired on OWN recently, but if you are on Netflix or KindleFire/ Amazon Video, then search on “From Ambition to Meaning”. I loved the movie. I got the audiobook version of Wishes Fulfilled and received a six CD set. None of the CDs had a printed table of contents outlining the chapters covered, so I will have to listen a second time to write the content on each CD. There was a warning on the cover that it may not be ok to listen while driving, but I was driving the entire time I listened. What a great way to pass an arduous commute. There were no meditations that asked you to close your eyes or anything.

I have been studying dream interpretation since the late ’80s, and Dr. Dyer has a little tiny section in Wishes Fulfilled on dreams. After listening to it with intention, I wonder if his editors chopped out a big section on dreams, or if he just glossed over it on purpose. He tells the listener/reader to go to bed with the intention to see wishes fulfilled, not to ask for a current problem to be solved. He neglects to advise the audience of the nature of dreams themselves. It was a new take on dreaming for me (to only focus on the positive future outcome that you desire as long as it’s in alignment with Spirit).

I have read many dream interpretation books and I remember the advice that several of these books laid out: for you to go to bed with a particular question about your everyday life in mind and to ask your dreaming self to help you solve it.  Lots of our dreams are laid out in if/then format. You’ll see a snippet that will shock you, and that will be the “if this continues” scenario, than you’ll see another snippet that will further shock you, but it’s not a representation of the future as you think of it. It will be the answer to the “if/then”. “If you continue with __ mindset or behavior, then it’s a possibility that __ may happen.”

So, after my first listen to Wishes Fulfilled, I wished that Dr. Dyer could have delved deeper into dreams. He really didn’t do them justice, as they can guide your life as surely as any orb or past life regression. (Inside joke…read or listen to the book to find out.)

 

Journal entries from years past

An ice cube with a valentine heart frozen inside it is dunked in water.I have kept written personal journals since the fourth grade; that’s roundabouts the past thirty years. It really helps me to vent, and to record my state of mind. I’ve learned I can’t always trust my memory! So it’s fun to pick up a really old journal and find an entry that still resonates today. I found one here:

October 15, 1999. I feel a change in me. It’s an increased sense of awareness about the world; an increased sensitivity. I feel raw and empathic (sic) toward humanity. I realize that the world is inside my heart; that I contain all sins and all virtues of the people of the world. I had to stop working yesterday to write: The whole world is simultaneously dreaming and a dream. I dream the world and the world dreams me.

This kind of awareness comes and goes. It has been absent from my life for the past several years, but now I seem to be waking up to it yet again.

Egads, I seem to have been bogged down with this zen-like banter:

April 27, 2000. Last night I remembered that there is no me. If all my thoughts are not my construction, if they are all recycled brainwaves being passed around by people vibrating at the same level, then there’s no idea I can claim as my own. And since “I am not my body,” then what am I? On the purist level, I’m only a vibration experiencing a movie of a life.

Then a month later, I write directions to myself for creating some artwork, then comment,

I know somehow my purpose will become clear. It is a cumulation of my life’s events – everywhere. And since there is no me and no you, it is a cumulation of everyone’s lives and this art has potential to speak to people on Maslow’s highest level, that of self-actualization.

Hmmm, I haven’t gone anywhere with that project….perhaps it’s time now.

Like me, lots of you out there feel this vague need to realize purpose, says Dr. Jean Houston, one of the Principal Founders of the Human Potential Movement. I’ll leave you with Houston’s very powerful program http://evolvingwisdom.com/programs/life-purpose.php Discovering and Living your True Purpose. A new 7-week course started today, and she promises a community of like minded individuals and tons of valuable excercises and lessons, including ways to dialogue with aspects of you. Enroll: (not an affiliate link)   http://evolvingwisdom.com/jeanhouston/yourlifepurpose/enroll .

Keep On Keeping On

I am Living on PurposeI’ve been simplifying my email inbox as part of my new year’s resolution that I never named. So far in January and February, I’ve unsubscribed from ten newsletters. I still have scores pouring into my inbox daily. It’s so hard to decide which to nix!

I do know what I like, though. Today I got a great reminder email from the Love and Logic Institute (parenting self-help). It was a simple attaboy! and it got me to click over to their site where I discovered that they’ve moved into the digital age and are now offering their courses as mp3 downloads as well as conventional CDs. It went like this:

Experiencing setbacks doesn’t mean failure. It simply means that the road to personal change is always under construction. You can be successful…as long as you remember the following:

Then there were five bullet points from Take it slow to You only fail if you give up.

I really appreciated seeing this message because it applies not only to Love and Logic skills, but to all life skills. So remember; keep on keepin’ on. Don’t give up. Be the change you want to see but don’t beat yourself up if you slip-up.

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